first post..

2006-08-18T16:35:00.000-07:00

well, this is my first post. yay. im excited. like i said somewhere else, i think i have three blogs. lol. im going to have to delete my livejournal. but, i keep my myspace. *sigh*

this is going to be heavy stuff for a first entry. my best friend got killed in a car accident last monday afternoon at about 3 : 45 pm. i didn't find out until 11 :00 pm that night. and i found out over an instant message from one of my friends. i thought everyone was playing a horrible joke on me, but when i realized it was true, i was unable to speak or breath.

right before my very eyes were the words that would change my life. "casey's gone.."

i didn't know what to do with myself. i wanted to go home as soon as possible and see everyone.. to comfort people and be comforted in return. i got out my phone and just looked at it, expecting it to ring and the caller id pop up and say "Casey". but it never did..

we found out that there were 5 people in the car. they were all going to the mall to buy school clothes. they went to pick up casey last and they were less than 10 minutes away from his house when it happened. the girl that was driving was going at least 80 down a VERY bad road and they were popping hills. her tires dropped off the side of the road and she overcorrected and went into oncoming traffic.. the lady that hit them, the girl who was driving, and the other boy in the front seat were all taken to the hospital, casey, and the other two in the back seat died instantly.. they didn't suffer. they were thrown threw the back window because they didn't have their seatbelts on. if they did, it might have saved their lives.

casey had just gotten back from my house. we went on vacation together to pensacola beach. it was the first time he'd gotten to see the ocean. im really glad he got to experience that. it really upsets me to think of all the things he wont get to do.. graduate, get married, have kids.

i made scrapbooks from the pictures my cousin, courtney, took when we were hanging out at my grandma's house and the pictures i took from florida. i was afraid i might offend them with something, but i think his parents really liked them. his whole family was taking it hard.. his dad and brother especially. he had casey's class ring on a lanyard around his neck at the visitation yesterday. i would love to have that ring.. but, i would never ask for it. it's too sentimental. i secretly wish i could have it, though. heh. i always stole it from him and wore it.

today at the funeral, his dad walked over to me and gave me two roses from the flowers on his coffin.. which was blue, by the way. he loved blue. the insert in the inside of his coffin had music notes on it. he loved to sing and listen to music. i loved his voice.. it was beautiful. but, now he's singing with the angels in Heaven.

i love him so much and i already miss him like crazy. i would have done anything to make him happy because i loved to see him smile and hear him laugh. he was the best person you could ever meet. everyone loved him and everyone wanted to be his friend. every girl wanted to date him because he was just so gosh darn cute. i loved and will love him for the rest of my life.

i know that one day i'll meet him again. i really am looking forward to that day. i cant wait to see my best friend again. i know he's in Heaven doing all the things he really loves, and i also know..

even though i lost my best friend in the whole entire world, i gained a Guardian Angel.

Brittany

Incessant Ramblings of a Normal Teen

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